February122010
See, It Was Just To Soon To Tell
Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. ~Glenn Turner
So anyone who knows me, works with me, or reads this blog knows that I have spent this week worrying about exactly what I should do for the upcoming lovefest we like to call Valentine’s Day. I knew I wanted to do something for B but I didn’t want to cross any “lines” about where our relationship stands. I sort of felt like I was under friendly fire…no one was aiming for me but one wrong move and it might all be over.
So imagine my surprise when I recieved red roses and candy at work today. To be totally honest with you when I saw the delivery guy my first thought was they were from my ex. Not because we have had any contact, we haven’t talked in over 7 months, but just because I couldn’t think of anyone else who would send me anything. I was THAT sure I wasn’t getting anything from B. I opened the box like a bomb and read the note inside with a sigh of relief - instantly followed by shock and (don’t tell anyone else this) eye’s that, even thought I was telling them not to, got a little wetter than normal.
I know what you are thinking…what does it mean? Are they taking their relationship to the next level? Is it still “casual”? Well let me tell you, I don’t care. I just spent a week wasting precious brain power worrying about something that now seems silly and meaningless, so I’m not going to worry about that either. It’s a gift and I adore it…I also adore making the other girls at work green with envy!!!
Has this taught me a less about worry? Yes it has…but give me a few weeks and I will forget it again. That’s just the way I work.
